Wednesday, April 26, 2006 

Nauseating News

Police Want To Know Who's Dumping Bags Of Vomit

POSTED: 7:37 am CDT April 26, 2006
Sheriff's deputies in Iowa are in the midst of a disgusting investigation.

Deputies in Henry County are trying to find the person who is dumping bags of what looks like human vomit.

Deputy Dan Wesley said they've found as many as 50 garbage bags containing regurgitated food over the last three years. He said it's pretty weird.

They've sent some samples to a lab for analysis, but Wesley said they haven't gotten any DNA yet.
Wesley said they just hope whoever is doing it will stop.
Originally posted at; Copyright 2006 by The Associated Press.
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Monday, April 17, 2006 

Back To My Roots

Recently I was reviewed by another blog site.  The review was quite blunt; scathing, in fact.  It was a major hit to my confidence, but it really became a catalyst for my thoughts. 
I've been thinking for some time that I needed to do something to jump-start my writing.  I've talked to Nick about this a lot and, time after time, he has reminded me that I  need to be doing writing just to do it - not to make money.  While I've known this to be true, I've been sluggish in really "getting" it.  It seems that I've spent so much time researching what I need to do in order to make money through writing, that my content has taken a down-slide. 
So the other day, following that awful review, Nick and I had another heart-to-heart about my blogs.  He really laid it out there again, saying that if writing didn't inspire me and give me life, then I needed to step back and find out why.  He reminded me of why I write.  I don't write because it brings me big bucks (or even ANY bucks), and I certainly don't put together SEO articles or anything to that effect.  I write because it's a catharsis, and because sometimes writing, for me, is easier than talking.
You'll notice the change in template and the lack of ads.  I'm going back to the basics.  I need to just write for awhile and let the rest follow as it will.  I'm not going to force this.  Bear with me as I figure this out - again.
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Wednesday, April 12, 2006 

Dangers of Everyday Life

I was reading my friend, Camille's, blog the other day and was reminded of an experience from my childhood.  I grew up in Texas, in an extremely rural area (think tumbleweeds and tarantulas) and we had a lot of snakes - including, but not limited to, rattlesnakes and moccasin snakes.  In fact, we had so many encounters with rattlesnakes that we actually owned an ice pick, not for dealing with ice, but"dealing with" rattlesnakes.  I remember several near-miss experiences that we always discussed with a sort of reverence; referring to God as saving us from these snakes.  One such situation included my sister (around 3-4 years old at the time) running playfully down a path and just sort of stepping over the feared snake lying in the middle of the trail.  Later on, my mother would shake her head with a mixture of fear and relief and we recounted the story.  I definitely grew up with a healthy fear of the creatures.
I also remember often driving on a bridge that went over a river.  The dirt was red and the river seemed to be always just short of a true river; drought usually made the water recess.  At some point or another, my parents warned us that there was quicksand on the banks of that river.  They may have only mentioned that in passing, but it was burned on our brains as if they recited it daily.  After we moved from Prayertown in Texas, I remember hearing that one of my best friends had run away from home and was found walking down that same road; over that same bridge.  I instantly had an eerie vision of her sinking into the sand, arms reaching up for help.   
They also told us that there were moccasin snakes in that river and that if they bit you, your tongue would swell so as to cover your throat, thereby suffocating you.  I always had a picture in my mind of a person's tongue getting bigger and bigger as their eyes started to pop out of their sockets; brains consumed by the knowledge that they were going to die soon.  We were always warned to stay away from that water because the dangers were unspeakable, and we lived several hours away from the nearest hospital.  To this day, I sometimes unconsciously hold my tongue between the roof of my mouth and my lower teeth just to assure myself that it has remained the same thickness as ever. 
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Tuesday, April 11, 2006 

Almighty Google

Well I'm back, but I'm hesitant to say so since I just feel so sucked of creativity lately.  I know, I know, it's the same old thing every time.  I would blame it on Mercury Retrograde again because I've been reading a few other blogs and they seem to be having the same problem, but unfortunately the Retrograde is over and we are left excuse-less. 
I did want to mention that I received a "warning" from Almighty Google saying that my blogs were receiving "false impressions."  Apparently it's not a good idea to enroll your blog in a program like Blog Explosion because you are basically generating false hits.  I don't exactly agree with this because although I know some advertisers do pay a very minute amount for impressions, the vast majority only charge for clicks.  In my mind, a click is a click (unless of course it's click fraud, but that's another story).  If a person is interested in an ad on my page and therefore, clicks on it, that is a legitimate click - whether they are coming by way of Blog Explosion or by way of search engine.  I would also be interested to see how many people received this warning.  I have navigated Blog Explosion and Blogmad and have seen countless blogs with Google Adsense on them. 
Regardless of what I think, I obviously don't make the rules so I have removed my blogs from any program that could give them "false impressions."  I am, however, still trying to wrap my brain around the situation -- but I guess there are whole blogs about this.  It's a bit discouraging though because it puts me right back at square one, making .16 per day and at a loss as to how to bring in traffic.  At least my mother still reads.
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Thursday, April 06, 2006 

Rising Star

As I type this, Nick is finding out how he ranks in his department at work.  This ranking determines whether he can apply for a promotion.  If he doesn't rank in the "right" spot, he can't apply for promotion again for two years. 
I'm using all of my What The Bleep strategies in order to create our reality...
The interesting thing is that there are very few pinpoint-able times where our lives have been changed by a precise moment.  This could be one of them.
The Irritable Bowel is getting worse.
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Saturday, April 01, 2006 

Human After All

I'm realizing more and more that I'm losing my perspective. Or perhaps it's not so much that I'm losing it, just that it's skewed.

See, I'm happy for people when good things happen for them, but I get a twinge - just a bite - deep in my gut. It's that thought, "why isn't that happening for us?"

I have a friend who just scored a great job working on a newsletter for a Non-Profit. It's perfect; gold; it even pays! And really, I am oh-so-happy for her. These jobs are hard to come by and as writers we must support one another when these things happen. But, there's that feeling again - "why not me?"

And then the mind fucking begins and the whispering starts.

It's because I suck; because I'm worthless. I can't get through to anyone. No one wants to read what I write. I'm fat.

But it's all so ridiculous because I have so much. I am so blessed. It's this convoluted pattern repeating itself.

Like I said, my perspective seems to be skewed lately.

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  • I'm Sara
  • From United States
  • I consider myself to be a storyteller and often draw upon my everyday experiences in order to create stories. I grew up in a commune.
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